Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Title: I tink I will get depression this time
This pregnancy has not been smooth sailing, I had a bad fall in my 16th week and all this while, the father of this child has not cared abt me except for paying for my medical bills.
Every other day he called me useless, say I duno how to earn money. But point is I'm helping him in our own biz, wat does he still expects from me. I'm at his beck and call and I need to be there to oversee the biz, does he expect me to still find a part time job with my huge tummy? Moreover, I dun earn a single cent for doing the job that others did. N I did not ask for a single cent too. All I wanted was to help him build up our own biz.
Juz now all I wan after eating prawn mee is juz to have a plate of rojak and guess wat he said, earn money u duno, only know how to eat and eat and eat. Then wat? M I supposed to starve myself and didi to death then that will make him happy? I really feel that he wants us to die. If we die he will be the happiest person on earth coz he tinks we are all burdens to him. Best is me, Abri and didi all die then he will b satisfied.
Every other day he called me useless, say I duno how to earn money. But point is I'm helping him in our own biz, wat does he still expects from me. I'm at his beck and call and I need to be there to oversee the biz, does he expect me to still find a part time job with my huge tummy? Moreover, I dun earn a single cent for doing the job that others did. N I did not ask for a single cent too. All I wanted was to help him build up our own biz.
Juz now all I wan after eating prawn mee is juz to have a plate of rojak and guess wat he said, earn money u duno, only know how to eat and eat and eat. Then wat? M I supposed to starve myself and didi to death then that will make him happy? I really feel that he wants us to die. If we die he will be the happiest person on earth coz he tinks we are all burdens to him. Best is me, Abri and didi all die then he will b satisfied.
The Memories 12:25 AM.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Title: 2nd time lucky!
Yes, I'm preggers again. This week marks my 26th weeks. Bb is doing well and getting more and more active in my tum tum. That means my sleepless nites have began again!!!
This pregnancy has not been easy for me. For the record, I'm still merlioning away. Toilet bowl is again my best friend. Has been hugging it from start till now. Hiakz ...
Yes, every pregnancy is different and this is really more tiring than having Abri. My bb has picky tastebuds. Eat anything he dun like, out it goes into the toilet bowl almost immediately. Now I know he dun like oily stuff, no mac, no sweet stuff, no chicken and the list goes on ...
At the very start I already had to live in fear for 3 weeks, I tested positive but ... when I go for my first scan, cannot find the sac at all. Had to run blood test after blood test for the HCG lvl and go for detail scan, was relieved when we finally found the sac hiding in a corner. Cannot get clearance coz gynae was worried to b ectopic. Waited for 3 weeks to get clearance that it is normal pregnancy. It was a torturous 3 weeks which I lived in tears. When I finally see my lil bb, I literally shed tears of joy!
Soon after the merlion starts again, eat wat throw up wat ... lost 3 kg! Till now still merlion but at least I'm putting on weight slowly now. But the additional kilos made me very tired n SLOW!!!
N I have this persistent cough till date cannot clear, had one stage developed to acute bronchitis and I cough n cough till sprain my back. Cham ... pain till cannot move cannot stand cannot sit cannot even sleep ... kaoz ... no end to my troubles.
At this moment, cough still there but not as bad, backache still there but less painful, vomiting still lidat everyday ... n now bb give me stong kicks which I luv n hate at the same time haha. Nevermind, March is coming. I look forward to the day when I can finally carry him in my arms. All this that I go thru will be so worth it then!
This pregnancy has not been easy for me. For the record, I'm still merlioning away. Toilet bowl is again my best friend. Has been hugging it from start till now. Hiakz ...
Yes, every pregnancy is different and this is really more tiring than having Abri. My bb has picky tastebuds. Eat anything he dun like, out it goes into the toilet bowl almost immediately. Now I know he dun like oily stuff, no mac, no sweet stuff, no chicken and the list goes on ...
At the very start I already had to live in fear for 3 weeks, I tested positive but ... when I go for my first scan, cannot find the sac at all. Had to run blood test after blood test for the HCG lvl and go for detail scan, was relieved when we finally found the sac hiding in a corner. Cannot get clearance coz gynae was worried to b ectopic. Waited for 3 weeks to get clearance that it is normal pregnancy. It was a torturous 3 weeks which I lived in tears. When I finally see my lil bb, I literally shed tears of joy!
Soon after the merlion starts again, eat wat throw up wat ... lost 3 kg! Till now still merlion but at least I'm putting on weight slowly now. But the additional kilos made me very tired n SLOW!!!
N I have this persistent cough till date cannot clear, had one stage developed to acute bronchitis and I cough n cough till sprain my back. Cham ... pain till cannot move cannot stand cannot sit cannot even sleep ... kaoz ... no end to my troubles.
At this moment, cough still there but not as bad, backache still there but less painful, vomiting still lidat everyday ... n now bb give me stong kicks which I luv n hate at the same time haha. Nevermind, March is coming. I look forward to the day when I can finally carry him in my arms. All this that I go thru will be so worth it then!
The Memories 1:02 AM.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Title: Rotting Blog ...
Gosh ... I have been so tied up with lil A and work that I have left this blog to rot for so so so long .... Here's a new song recommendation for in the meanwhile till I can find some time to post some updates =) I'm totally in luv with the lyrics and Anthony Neely!!!
The Memories 1:06 AM.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Title: Iphone 4
I finally gotten my phone on 19/08/2010, Koohii's 2 mths death anniversary ... Not that I wanted to. I was happily waiting for the white release but hubby's kpo fren knew he wanted to help me use his contract to sign for tis phone and assume he wants to reserve together juz because he did not pick up his call and ordered the current black one for him. N he oso din cancel the reservation when he realised!!! Guess he wanted to cheer me up coz I've been moody ever since Koohii left.
So, I'm STUCK! N I realise I'm such a iphone idiot. So complicated to sync with the comp!!! Pek chek! Can anyone change with me the White one??? =P
The Memories 2:01 AM.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Title: In loving memory of Koohii (08/04/2004 - 19/06/2010)
Koohii, tis post is delicated to you. Rest in peace my dearest furboy. I hope you are happier now in heaven. We shall meet again when mummy leaves this world. U will always be in mummy's heart, there is this space where it shall always be reserved for you and will never be replaced. I love you and will always do even when you are gone now.
Mummy and Daddy miss u so much. Thank you for all the joy that you have brought to my life these 6 years. It may be short but you have left me so much happy memories. For your sake, I'm happy to be called a "bitch". I still remember how you like to "act" injured, you could have won the best actor award. I remember your Daddy used to luv Mochi more than you but you managed to win him over with your gentle ways. I remember how you looked at me with your pitiful doggy eyes to beg for food. I remember how you followed me wherever I went, even to work. I remember how you wanted me to carry you thruout my pregnancy. I remember how I saved you from the fierce dogs that try to attack you. I remember how I saved you from the jaws of death when you swallow soap powder. But how many times can I save you, obviously I failed this time. The tot of giving you away has never ever cross my mind when I had Lil A despite all the advice frm pple around me, how could you juz leave me like this?
How I wish you are juz acting dead with me but you are not. Did u know how heartbroken mummy and daddy is when we see u there lifeless? Y did you not listen to me when I scold you the day before for escaping the cage, not everytime you can be so lucky and apparently your last attempt proved to be fatal. There are so many more things I have not done with you. My birthday wish this year was to take a family protrait with you, Mochi, Lil A and Daddy but this wish will never be fulfilled.
Koohii, you must protect yourself at the other end of the rainbow bridge, dun let me worry about you. Didi boy, we shall wait for the day we meet again. Daddy has kept all your fave things and the place where you use to lay is reserved for you. One last time, KOOHII, DADDY AND MUMMY LOVES YOU.
Mummy and Daddy miss u so much. Thank you for all the joy that you have brought to my life these 6 years. It may be short but you have left me so much happy memories. For your sake, I'm happy to be called a "bitch". I still remember how you like to "act" injured, you could have won the best actor award. I remember your Daddy used to luv Mochi more than you but you managed to win him over with your gentle ways. I remember how you looked at me with your pitiful doggy eyes to beg for food. I remember how you followed me wherever I went, even to work. I remember how you wanted me to carry you thruout my pregnancy. I remember how I saved you from the fierce dogs that try to attack you. I remember how I saved you from the jaws of death when you swallow soap powder. But how many times can I save you, obviously I failed this time. The tot of giving you away has never ever cross my mind when I had Lil A despite all the advice frm pple around me, how could you juz leave me like this?
How I wish you are juz acting dead with me but you are not. Did u know how heartbroken mummy and daddy is when we see u there lifeless? Y did you not listen to me when I scold you the day before for escaping the cage, not everytime you can be so lucky and apparently your last attempt proved to be fatal. There are so many more things I have not done with you. My birthday wish this year was to take a family protrait with you, Mochi, Lil A and Daddy but this wish will never be fulfilled.
Koohii, you must protect yourself at the other end of the rainbow bridge, dun let me worry about you. Didi boy, we shall wait for the day we meet again. Daddy has kept all your fave things and the place where you use to lay is reserved for you. One last time, KOOHII, DADDY AND MUMMY LOVES YOU.
The Memories 2:16 AM.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Title: Mochi's 7th birthday
Today is Mochi's 7th birthday. Old dog already. I specially made him a potato and carrot which Koohii slurps up during the making process but Mochi dun seem to like it at all =.=
Poor Mochi was so happy to see us but Lil A is not very happy to see him, kept crying coz Mochi keep barking at her to welcome her. LOL.
Sad to say coz Lil A insisted on me carrying her, I did not get to take a pix with Mochi, only managed to snap some pixs using my DSLR with my shaking hands while hubby tries to feed him the cake so the photos are quite a disaster. Hahahahahaha.
But then I made Lil A at least sayang Mochi so at the end of the day, she finally sort of get over her fear and smile at him. That makes me very very happy coz I luv my dogs and she muz learn to luv them too.
The Memories 5:24 PM.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Title: Idiotic husband
This happen last Wed, was so darn pissed by the idiotic husband! I literally feel that I'm a single mother, with hb macham no hb! Or shld I say, I may be happier without the hb.
This morning, when I walked into the shower room, I saw him went out to play with my girl. Who knows, he juz suddenly disappeared to do his own stuff and suddenly he came charging in bang door and bang the shower door onto my face and yelled at me to see, and I saw poor lil A lying on the floor crying (crawled off the bed).
He scream at me for not watching after lil A from the shower room and I told him I tot he was with him, and he yelled at me saying I should watch on lil A even while bathing and shout for him when I see her falling. Then y dun he juz sit thr few mins let me bath finish and she wun fall at all?
But there were undies hanging on the shower door blocking my view lor, how to see? N who the hell shampoo hair with eyes open wide wide!
I find him so selfish lor, he can always juz play game, yak on the phone with frens, do his own things, juz dun wan to take care of lil A. To him, I dun seem to be human, I no need to eat, no need to drink, no need to bath, no need to even go toilet, dun even need to REST. Wat he take me as? Robot?
Like as if I not upset that lil A now has a big baluku on her forehead, he still keep yelling at me say I useless. Izt my fault that he doesn't help at all?! I pity my girl for having such a lousy daddy! If there I have fault, that would be marrying the wrong guy and having the wrong daddy for lil A!
This morning, when I walked into the shower room, I saw him went out to play with my girl. Who knows, he juz suddenly disappeared to do his own stuff and suddenly he came charging in bang door and bang the shower door onto my face and yelled at me to see, and I saw poor lil A lying on the floor crying (crawled off the bed).
He scream at me for not watching after lil A from the shower room and I told him I tot he was with him, and he yelled at me saying I should watch on lil A even while bathing and shout for him when I see her falling. Then y dun he juz sit thr few mins let me bath finish and she wun fall at all?
But there were undies hanging on the shower door blocking my view lor, how to see? N who the hell shampoo hair with eyes open wide wide!
I find him so selfish lor, he can always juz play game, yak on the phone with frens, do his own things, juz dun wan to take care of lil A. To him, I dun seem to be human, I no need to eat, no need to drink, no need to bath, no need to even go toilet, dun even need to REST. Wat he take me as? Robot?
Like as if I not upset that lil A now has a big baluku on her forehead, he still keep yelling at me say I useless. Izt my fault that he doesn't help at all?! I pity my girl for having such a lousy daddy! If there I have fault, that would be marrying the wrong guy and having the wrong daddy for lil A!
The Memories 1:06 AM.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Title: Haircut today for lil A
Abrielle was still rather happy when we step into Hua Xia to do her paintbrushes and stamp. But once we progress to cut her hair, all hell broke loose!!!! N daddy was darn pissed that my hair became so short and scolded mummy BIG TIME! Poor mummy, spent close to $600 and got so much scolding. Ah ma oso complain I dun look cute anymore ... sobsssss ...
Hmmm ... wats happening? 
Pouts ... dun like that sound ...
No no no .... dun cut my fringe pls!!!!
Daddy says I look so ugly ... if he had know its gonna be so short, he would not have let mummy bring me go cut.
The Memories 6:51 PM.
